Category: Self Awareness

NaPoWriMo Day Fifteen

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Yesterday was just a little too bleak.  So today I figured to write about the one thing in my life that is always wonderful.  No matter how lousy I feel, my incredible wife is always there to make me smile.

My Angel Lynn

There is someone who listens as,
I endlessly recite.
And try to tweak the words just so,
On every verse I write.

She always tries to see that I,
Am happy if she can.
And when it comes to sketch or verse,
She is my biggest fan.

The greatest pleasure in my life,
Is time she spends with me.
The truth is, time I spend with her’s,
The happiest I’ll be,

Sometimes we laugh and laugh until, Most think we’ve lost our minds.
Laugh at the strangest, random things,
Like glowing white behinds.

Sometimes we sit and don’t say much,
Just want each other near.
Soft gentle sounds of souls content,
Are all you’re apt to hear.

She’s everything to me you see,
My lovely Angel Lynn,
And paradise for me is found,
Whichever place she’s in.

I do not know what I would be,
If she were not with me,
And yet I know the truth is this,
A lesser man you’d see.

So thank you Lynn for all you are
And all the joy you bring.
I love you more than I can tell,
You are my everything.

Cheers, Winston

NaPoWriMo Day Twelve

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Walking to work today I had to stop to catch my breath because of pains in my chest. This started me thinking “What if..”  This poem is the result of those musings.

The Stygian Maiden

A maiden sits upon a bank,
Midst flowers near a stream.
I know this place I’ve seen her here,
But that was just a dream.

How can it be I see her now?
When last I do recall;
I was at work my boring job,
Some boring conference call.

Did I doze off again at work?
My boss will have a fit,
But I don’t care since I am here,
I’ll make the best of it.

I look at her as she sits there,
So peaceful and so still.
I wish that I could see her face,
Somehow don’t think I will.

The clouds now swallow up the sun,
The sky turns dark and grey.
Excitement’s gone with fear replaced,
She starts to turn my way,

Her dress and hair merge into one,
A robe of deepest black.
There is no face beneath the hood,
A scythe across her back.

She reaches out a bony hand,
Plucks two coins from my fist.
She doesn’t speak but gestures to,
A boat there in the mist.

I know her now this maiden dark,
It all comes back to me.
The sudden pain, the falling down,
My God! This cannot be!

But she had come to warn me then,
With my first heart attack.
That if I did not change my ways,
Quite soon she would be back.

I do not want to cross the stream,
But I am in the boat.
I want to stay but cannot change,
The fate my own hand wrote.

Cheers, Winston

NaPoWriMo Day Six

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I had a stressful morning at work today which at least answered the question of what to write about…..

ANGER MISMANAGEMENT

The anger mounts inside of me,
It will not go away.
It grows and grows and will not die,
It seems it’s here to stay.

The slightest thing that thwarts my will,
Can tap that ball of rage.
My family then creep about,
And try my mood to gage.

I try so hard to keep it in,
But it comes roaring out.
My wife tells me that I possess,
A terrifying shout.

I do not like this part of me,
Wish I could change somehow.
But though I try I do not change,
So I hold on for now.

Cheers, Winston

NaPoWriMo Day Four

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Not sure what to write about today, so I’ll write about that very dilemma.

KEEP CALM AND WRITE ON

So once again I hunt for words,
Seek my elusive rhyme.
And run down inspiration with,
One eye stuck on the time.

I have a thought then think again,
Think I did that last year.
This being fresh is tougher than,
Some folks make it appear.

My muse is here right next to me
Her faith helps me write on.
So I grab words and make them fit
Before the day is gone.

It’s just the fourth and I have nought
To write of yet I write.
And having writ I now conclude
To post this verse tonight.

Cheers, Winston

Words of Change

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So I’m changing positions at work. I currently have an amazing team. We work well together, and get along remarkably well. It’s sort of like an extended family where we may bicker amongst ourselves but at the end of the day, we’re united against the world.

Well, now it’s time to embrace another opportunity which has come my way. One of my current team is going with me and I’ve known one of my new team members for years. I’m going to build another amazing team, but it won’t be this team.

It’s sad but inevitable. No matter how good what we have now may be, it’s impossible to freeze people as they are. The fact that we grow and change is kind of central to what we are as human beings.

Pondering this sense of inevitability led to the following poem.

WORDS of CHANGE

The days run out, they race away,
Each quicker than the last.
The time that’s left, quick drains away,
From future to the past.

That which has been must pass away,
Make way for what’s to be.
No matter how much fun it’s been,
Nor what it’s meant to me.

The future’s here, no time to run,
It’s time for moving on.
What was gives way to that which is,
Then like a dream…
It’s….
Gone.

Cheers, Winston

Awesome Weekend

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Normally, Lynn and I take Chester and head up to the trailer when I finish work Friday. Last Friday, the weather was so horrible we stayed home for Chester.

You see, Chester is a big puppy. There’s not a lot of room for him to stretch out in the trailer so we usually spend most of our time out on the deck. When the weather gets nasty that doesn’t work. Hence no trip to the trailer Friday. I love my puppy, so not a big deal.

Saturday morning dawned bright and beautiful so we debated, loaded Chester in the car and boogied out of town. An hour and a half later, I had my feet up on the deck with Chester napping nearby. (My puppy is fifteen so he tends to nap a fair bit)

Lynn had made plans with her parents to go rose shopping so it was just Chester and I and the local wildlife. A hummingbird came to test whether the store bought nectar in the feeder is better than the honeysuckle next to it. There was a chipmunk with the worlds’ scruffiest tail who proved how brave he is by standing next to my napping puppy. Chester twitched an ear in his sleep and the little guy decided he’d been brave enough for one day. Later, a blue jay sat on the railing and complained bitterly that we have yet to replace our broken bird feeder.

For the rest of the day, I read a bit, napped a bit then read some more. That evening when Lynn arrived, (she picked up six new roses for our garden at home) I made spaghetti for supper and we relaxed and read for the rest of the evening.

Sunday, I made us pancakes for breakfast. We walked our puppy and then settled in on the deck and spent the day reading, relaxing and just quietly enjoying each others company. After supper, we took Chester for a longer walk in the cooler evening.

Once back on the deck, we started talking about packing to go home. The more we talked about it, the less we wanted to go. We were comfy and relaxed. Chester was napping on his deck again. Nobody wanted to move so we voted to come back early this morning for work.

We put our feet back up and settled into our books. I finished my book, got my laptop and switched to watching a movie. Around eleven, Lynn got chilly and moved inside to continue reading. I stayed outside with my puppy until around one, gave Chester a last walk for the night and went in to bed.

This morning we got up early, packed up and headed in for work. The trailer Gods approved our decision,so we had minimal traffic on the way home.

All in all, an awesome weekend.

Cheers, Winston

Time To Prioritize

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I have passes to the advance screening of Star Trek: Into Darkness tonight… in 3D! I am incredibly excited for this… so I lost the tickets. Last night I tore my house apart… repeatedly. Still no passes.

I was incredibly angry with myself. I called me all sorts of unpleasant names and stressed myself to the eyeballs. Over a movie. A movie I wasn’t even paying for. But I really want to see it so after I went to bed I thought of somewhere else to look. I jumped out of bed and went to look. Still no pass. I found myself veering from anger into depression.

By then it’s past midnight. Lynn and Chester have gone to bed but my stressing and roaming around trying to find the pages is keeping them awake. It was about then that I started thinking… maybe I’m looking at things all wrong.

I stopped rushing around and took a few minutes to pet my dog. Then I gave Lynn a foot-rub, and a quick back-rub and went to bed. This morning I looked a bit more but not as frantically as last night. I staggered when Lynn got up, she was going to look some more but I told her not to worry about it.

Why the change of heart? Did I just give up on it? Nope. I just got my priorities straight. Why stress Lynn over free movie tickets? Instead of worrying about some movie passes I don’t have I figure I should focus more on the wonderful things I do have.

I’ve got a wonderful wife who puts up with my insanity and does anything she can to make my world better. Our daughter is beautiful, smart, caring and I’m blessed to have an awesome relationship with her. I also happen to have the world’s greatest puppydog. There’s never going to be movie that’s more important than them.

That’s what I clued in to last night. That’s when I realized it’s time to prioritize.

Cheers, Winston

NaPoWriMo Day:28 My Simple Life

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In many ways, I’m more likely to take life as it comes rather than try to make it into anything particular. Sometimes this works out well… sometimes not so much.

Enjoy!

My Simple Life

I don’t suppose that writing this
Will help you understand.
The life I’ve lived, the things I’ve done
Well none of it’s been planned.

I’m not the one to look ahead
And see what must be done.
I just keep going day by day
And try to have some fun.

Sometimes it works out really good
But sometimes not so well.
Sometimes you land in paradise
Sometimes it’s more like Hell.

I guess that what I’d like to say
Is thanks for all the best.
And I’m so sorry that you’ve had
To deal with all the rest.

Cheers, Winston

NaPoWriMo Day:27 The Secret To Joy

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Day 27 of NaPoWriMo finds me in a philosophical mood. Without further ado…

Enjoy!

The Secret To Joy

A weary soul, a tired soul
A soul in need of rest.
A quiet time, a peaceful time
At home time is the best.

So much to see, so much to do
So much that’s left undone.
We rush from dawn, we rush to dusk
We rush ’til life’s no fun.

A life that’s full, a life that’s packed
With novelty each day.
We take it in, we spit it out
We throw it all away.

We take a look, we look away
We look for something new.
A view that’s new, a view unique.
We’d find it if we flew.

We fly so high, we see so far
Then we are brought so low.
The truth is here, the truth is now
That’s what we ought to know.

We can’t force life so don’t chase life
That is a golden rule.
We must live now, be in the now
All else is dust you fool.

Cheers, Winston

NaPoWriMo Day:26. For My Angel Lynn

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NaPoWriMo post 26 is a love poem for awesome lover Lynn. Thank you so very much my angel.

Enjoy!

I dreamed of love one summer night
And then when I awoke.
I realized it was a dream
That’s when my heart was broke.

For years I thought that was the end
My dream now never true.
But I know now the dream was real
Now that I have found you.

You’re everything I dreamt you’d be
That night so long ago.
I am so blessed to share your life.
So blessed you love me so.

I cannot thank you near enough
For all you do for me.
Although I pray that these few words
Will somehow help you see.

I’m so much more than I would be
Without you in my life.
I am so blessed in every way
To have you as my wife.

Cheers, Winston