I’ve Been A Little Busy…

So, it’s been a few more than a few months since I’ve posted here. That’s mostly because I’ve been busy with a whole new project. I’ve started on the artwork for my own set of Tarot cards. At the same time, I’ve put up a dedicated website to showcase my art including the cards as I finish them. Anyone interested can check it all out at https://greenapestudio.com

Not Tarot related, but the latest drawing I’ve finished to got in the gallery at greenapestudio.com.

As always, I would love any feedback.

Cheers,

Ordo Malleus

So it’s been a bit since I’ve posted. I needed a bit of a break after the brain melting chaos which is NaPoWriMo. While I’ve been recovering, I did some art therapy and spent about thirty hours creating yet another Warhammer 40k piece. This one is my take on the symbol of the Ordo Malleus. They are the Imperial Inquisition’s relentless hunters of the taint of Chaos.

As alway, I would love to know what you think.

Suffer not the taint of Chaos!

Cheers,‘

NaPoWriMo 2023 Day 2

People often ask me why I put so much effort into this challenge each year. It is as simple and as complex as this. I want to create something which may outlast my time in this world. None of these are great and immortal verse, yet if there is something in one of them which is recalled after the initial reading, or a drawing which crosses the viewer’s mind down the road, then I have taken a step on the road to a more lasting legacy. Today’s poem speaks to that quest for immortality through one’s body of work. Enjoy!

Why Do I Try?

I am an artist this I know,

With scars upon my soul.

Of every work that I create,

For each must take it’s toll.

Whether fine verse, image or prose,

I seek with every page,

A record of some part of me,

To last beyond my age.

I highly doubt that I shall find,

Posterity I’d claim,

For though some few enjoy my craft,

I’m far from any fame.

I can’t resist the visions, they,

Come crashing through my mind,

So once more I set pen to page,

Perhaps this time to find.

Some secret I have missed ‘til now,

With which to make my mark,

Lest I remain forever lost,

In long forgotten dark.

Cheers,

NaPoWriMo Day 30

Today is the last of April and so the last day of NaPoWriMo. It’s true, I haven’t made any effort to follow the writing prompts, but I have written 30 poems this month. In that spirit, I feel entitled to a little celebration. To everyone who made it this far, Congratulations! To everyone who participated, Thank you so much for sharing your words with the rest of us!

THE FINAL VERSE…….?

Oh day of days, this final day,

Relief through me does flow.

Though I rejoice to see it done,

I’ll miss it now I know.

I’ve sweated and I’ve cursed it and,

I’ve dreaded each new day.

Dreaded knowing sometime I must,

Run out of things to say.

But here I am and finally,

My tortured brain may rest.

Though I’ve not writ some epic ode,

I’ve done my very best.

Now every time I try to speak,

I spout some silly rhyme.

If I can’t break this habit I,

May lose my mind in time.

So pop the cork and fill the glass,

We’ve made it one more year.

To everyone who shared their voice,

Who overcame their fear.

I thank you for the words you’ve shared,

For every line you’ve penned.

I wonder if like me you both,

Dread and applaud the end.

But stick around, don’t go just yet,

There’s more to come you see.

There’s writing and there’s artworks and,

More little bits of me.

Cheers, Winston

Personal Creativity Project: Poem #6

When I was a kid, my brother Jack spent countless hours winding me up with ghost stories.  He took a perverse delight in terrifying me.  We had no hydro or TV and the nearest neighbor was miles away.  I guess I was his entertainment. 

He had a knack for turning the most mundane thing into a source of pure terror.  For instance…. a flight of stairs.

The Cellar Stairs

A narrow stair, a slippery stair,
A stair into the black.
To take this path, to travel down,
Is never to come back.

A basement stair, a cellar stair,
Just how far can it go?
What’s waiting there? What’s lurking there?
If you go down you’ll know.

It’s just a stair, a simple stair,
There’s nothing there to fear,
Then why the shakes, and why the sweats,
Each time that you go near?

A wooden stair, a shaky stair,
It waits to take you down.
To every terror you can dream,
Your very soul to drown.

A dreaded stair, a hated stair,
You’re frozen at the top.
If you should slip, if you should fall,
You know you’ll never stop.

A proving stair, a testing stair,
Your brother eggs you on,
If you complete this trial then,
Your fear will soon be gone.

A haunted stair, a cursed stair,
This brother told you so.
And now he nudges you a step,
And says you have to go.

A treacherous stair, a fickle stair,
You want to flee this place.
You turn to go, you turn to run,
You foot slips into space.

Triumphant stair, victorious stair,
You plummet to your doom.
Your brother calls down from the top,
“Now I’ll have my own room.”

Cheers, Winston

Personal Creativity Project: Poetry

For years I suffered from crippling social anxiety, stress and depression.  It took a long time and a lot of hard work to get to where I am now.  This poem is to help people understand three who are now where I was then.

It’s An Illness, Not A Choice

Another day has dawned and I,
Still lost within my mind,
I wander aimless through it’s halls,
By memory designed.

I know that I should face my day,
But Iangorous I remain,
For in my mind all things work out,
And I control my pain.

The voices in my head come out,
And talk to me all day.
They laugh and fight and carry on,
They race about and play.

With all that goes on in my head,
The real world fades.
I get lost in the wonder of,
My own internal parades.

My friends all say I should get out,
And join the world again.
I say I will and mean it too,
I’m kind of vague on when.

I think today may be the day,
Start planning in my head.
But now it’s dark and here I am,
Still planning in my bed.

So here I am and here I stay,
Can’t say when I’ll stop by.
For I am trapped here in my head,
Enough to make you cry.

Cheers, Winston

Personal Creativity Project: Poetry.

Reading some Poe earlier lent tonights verse a more macabre air.  Infidelity, vengeance and remorse…. Enjoy!

Ghost of a Romance

You come to me, you cling to me,
You beg what I can’t give.
You shade, you fade, oh spectre rude,
I can’t help you to live.

You shriek, beseech, and weep at me,
You swear you were so wrong.
You never loved, could never love,
To someone else belong.

But I walked in, I saw the truth,
The two of you entwined.
Then something broke, my heart was broke,
And broken too my mind.

I don’t recall, I can’t recall,
What happened to this day.
But I suspect the worst because,
You’re hounding me this way.

Forgive me love, for love we shared,
When love was bright and new.
And I’ll forgive, forgive you love,
That peace may come to you.

Cheers, Winston